I have been feeling frustrated with what I perceive as lack of progress with writing my book. It isn't taking shape as I want it to. It isn't how I want it to be. There's no solid foundation to build on.
The gap between where I am and where I want to be is not a comfortable place. It's like being in a lion's den where doubts, fears and disaster thinking thrive.
Some days I take on each fear, moving into and through it to the safe place beyond it. Other days I'm overwhelmed.
But is there any way of understanding how these unwelcome weeds appear in our minds in the first place? And, can we do anything to prevent them?
I think I'm taking too long to write this book. Time is ticking away. That's the thought they slide in through. I can see that it's my judgements around time that cause them.
I get frustrated as soon as my mind tells me 'You should be much further after all this time' or 'You're being too slow'. 'You're never going to finish this.' They can then force the door open and muscle their way into my awareness. Robbing me of my serenity.
But if I take time judgements out of the picture, I'm simply feeling good about what I'm achieving every day. I may have a 'feeling' of getting nowhere, but of course I'm always getting somewhere. I am learning and growing, engaging with the work in new ways, dealing with the stuff in the lion's den. Much further along than I was yesterday.
When we diligently follow our path, we may not get where we want to get as soon as we think we should, but we will always face what we need to face....
...Bang on time.
The gap between where I am and where I want to be is not a comfortable place. It's like being in a lion's den where doubts, fears and disaster thinking thrive.
Some days I take on each fear, moving into and through it to the safe place beyond it. Other days I'm overwhelmed.
But is there any way of understanding how these unwelcome weeds appear in our minds in the first place? And, can we do anything to prevent them?
I think I'm taking too long to write this book. Time is ticking away. That's the thought they slide in through. I can see that it's my judgements around time that cause them.
I get frustrated as soon as my mind tells me 'You should be much further after all this time' or 'You're being too slow'. 'You're never going to finish this.' They can then force the door open and muscle their way into my awareness. Robbing me of my serenity.
But if I take time judgements out of the picture, I'm simply feeling good about what I'm achieving every day. I may have a 'feeling' of getting nowhere, but of course I'm always getting somewhere. I am learning and growing, engaging with the work in new ways, dealing with the stuff in the lion's den. Much further along than I was yesterday.
When we diligently follow our path, we may not get where we want to get as soon as we think we should, but we will always face what we need to face....
...Bang on time.
